Thursday, September 16, 2010

Letting go of old fears

I've been listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer's Book The Power of Intention on CD. I had started the book and got half way through when I ended up reading another book. I've meant to get back to the book but haven't. I was very pleased when a friend gave me the CD. It was another sign I need to read this book.
I'm almost through with it and I definitely encourage everyone to read or listen to this. I find listening to him is even more empowering, using my sense of hearing.

There is so much that can be said about this book that is too lengthy to discuss on a blog, but each time I listen to a section I'm immediately drawn to my life and how what he is saying applies to it or how I can apply what he is saying. It's so moving.

One thing for sure I know is I need to work on my affirmations. I've been doing well so far and yet I think I should concentrate on only a few at a time. I have a tendency to become scattered and now my new affirmation for this is. I am calm and able to concentrate on any situation with ease.

My body is over weight which has bothered me since I was about twelve years old. The odd thing is when I was twelve years old I really wasn't over weight. Yet this is when I began to think I was. This is when I began to diet and exercise and so forth to shed the unwanted pounds that seriously wasn't there. This was in my mind however, planted firmly by well meaning friends, family members and media.

Listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer has helped me to realize that I am NOT my body. I am perfectly created. So with that in mind I am feeling better about myself. I am also taking a look at my list of things that I want to do and on this list I have wanted to learn Yoga since I was a teen. I would watch the poses and see the look of serenity on their faces and think, Wow I'd like to do that. So why haven't I learned it you ask? Because of well meaning family members telling me that it is a religion and to stay away from it. The same well meaning friends telling me that meditation is basically evil and you need to pray not meditate. Which I stayed away from meditation too.

But I always wanted to learn to meditate and I wanted to learn Yoga. So now that I began to release the undesired ropes holding me down I started meditation first. I will be honest I was worried at first but my overwhelming desire to meditate and bring a sense of calmness, peace to my troubled mind outweighed my “fears”. What I found was truly an amazing place to be in. When I meditate I find the peace I need.

I was telling a friend the other day of one of my first experiences meditating. It was perhaps my fourth or fifth time. I was reading a great book the Master Key System. And I was trying to bring about nothingness, the absence of thought. Which isn't easy but I was able to do this several times for split seconds. Then soon I relaxed and began to float in my mind. I was repeating the words “I'm in unity with the Universe.” in my mind. Softly spoken in my thoughts, repeatedly. Suddenly everything just became white washed, the only way I can describe it. I felt myself floating in my mind and body, swaying back and forth on this sea of white. I felt suddenly connected to everyone and everything. I was calmly connected in this vast sea of white. It was very beautiful to feel and I felt so connected in such a soothing way. It was as if I belonged and I knew I belonged.

It is in the silence that we hear God speak to us.

So now... I'm also planning on learning Yoga.

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