I watched the movie What the Bleep Do We Know several years ago and it was a validation of what I had been reading in other things. It didn't mention the Law of Attraction per-say but it was leading me in this direction. Watching this movie however opened up what I had been dealing with at the time and that simply realizing that we are in control of our lives.
I've lived the first 30+ years feeling not in control. Everywhere I looked I was being told that destiny, Fate or God is in control and to be honest I was unhappy about it. Of course I didn't know I was unhappy about it, because I was just going through life feeling powerless to change it.
We are told that we are powerless and to let God handle this and let God handle that. Then if it doesn't go as we asked or planned then it's either our fault because we didn't do something right or it's because it's not God's will. But God has been so removed that he is separate from us.
I have to tell you I know what God's will is now for me and that's simply My Will. God gives us Free Will. We are in control. This was a life changing event for me. That has continued to grow over the years.
The next life changing event was watching The Secret another major stepping stone in changing my life for the better. I have bought the DVD of both these movies and I've bought several books on the Law of Attraction.
But before I stray down the rabbit hole... let me get back to being in control. First off this is so frightening or it was at least for me when I realized I was in control all along. Wow what a wake up call to realize everything that has gone bad is basically my doing. But lets not lay this guilt on because everything good is my doing too. Hmmm. Now came the big question. What do I do now?
Well I don't know about anyone else, but I cried. Because the first thing I did was forgive myself for my ignorance in not knowing and I knew from that moment on I would now be in control. I also knew I was learning and this whole Universe was open and new and I could be anything I wanted. The very best part about this is I knew I was in control. Once you realize you're in control, you'll never go back, because the knowledge is there.
I began a true journey of within, one I am still on. One I've chosen to share with those who would like to listen. I'm in control of my mind, my body and my soul. I think however I was only half connected. It's like the knowledge was always there I just couldn't connect to it and now I'm bridging these gaps and what is happening is this great whole new me.
I am who I want to be. I am who I will to be.
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