Fear

Today I was checking my facebook page and I ran across a link a friend had posted and I was struck but the "Fear" factor in the video. Fear that the end of the world is coming and Fear that you will be left behind.

I want to give thanks to God, to the Universe, that I no longer live in fear. I know there is no end of the world. I know that I am eternal. I am grateful for the love and joy that lives in me. Thankful for the restoration that is moving through me, connecting me to God, to my source.

I am grateful and thankful that I live in love without fear. That I live my intentions now and I know that I am an infinite being that is in Unity with God, Our Source. Thank you for all the teachers who I have been in contact with, who have aided me in becoming truly free. Thank you.

I do not seek God because of fear. I seek God and enlightenment because I desire the connection. I am who I will to be. Thank you!

Mothers Day

Mothers Day came and went with me working and not thinking too much about it. I worked 12 hours that day and watched all the children picking up their mothers and was just happy they were with family.

I have three beautiful children. Rachael, Jeremiah and Sarah. Rachael and Jeremiah are adults now with Rachael being married and a mother of a precious daughter, Veronica. I have been blessed to have such beautiful children. They still bless me when I think of them and when I am with them.

Rachael and Jeremiah live in another state than Sarah and I do, about 1300 miles away from us. The internet is such a wonderful tool and it has given us a chance to reach out and see each other on webcam, which is absolutely amazing.

I was excited to see my granddaughter being an adorable 18 months old, laughing and playing and I could see Rachael in her and to me this brought back so many memories of when Rachael was little. I was filled with joy and the thing that hit me most watching my daughter and granddaughter was that my daughter is an amazing mother. I could see the love between them and their interactions. I could see the attentiveness of Rachael to her daughter as she played in the background. Always checking on her, making sure she was ok as she spoke to me on the webcam. It was so ingrained in her that I doubt my daughter even noticed what she did.

I think often we go through life as mothers worried if we are doing the right thing. I know that we have doubts about how we are raising our children. I know I have had many doubts in how I raised my older two children more so than with Sarah. I am much more confident in what I do or say with Sarah and I think because of my maturity and experience it has helped me a lot.

I often worried about Rachael because her teen years with me were troubled years. She went through a lot and all I ever wanted was for her to be happy. Rachael when she was little was the most beautiful child with big blue eyes and the sweetest smile and although she had one hell of a temper she was wonderful to hold, hug and nuzzle. There came a point as a teen, she no longer wanted to hug, nuzzle or be cute. But as I watched her with her daughter, there was my baby Rachy cuddling, kissing and loving all over her little one and I am proud to say she's a great mom and still a great daughter.

I'm not sure I'd told her enough what a great daughter she is because of the miles that have kept us apart for more years than I'd like to say. But I do know we are all connected in this vast universe and whether she realizes it or not but for nine months she shared my heart and it beat for both of us. Stuff like that just doesn't go away.

So to all those mothers and daughters out there just remember that even though our physical bodies are no longer connected our spiritual ones are. So lets make mothers day every day and keep the love connection going. I know I'm making this conscience effort to send all my love to my children through this unending stream of life.