Letting go of old fears

I've been listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer's Book The Power of Intention on CD. I had started the book and got half way through when I ended up reading another book. I've meant to get back to the book but haven't. I was very pleased when a friend gave me the CD. It was another sign I need to read this book.
I'm almost through with it and I definitely encourage everyone to read or listen to this. I find listening to him is even more empowering, using my sense of hearing.

There is so much that can be said about this book that is too lengthy to discuss on a blog, but each time I listen to a section I'm immediately drawn to my life and how what he is saying applies to it or how I can apply what he is saying. It's so moving.

One thing for sure I know is I need to work on my affirmations. I've been doing well so far and yet I think I should concentrate on only a few at a time. I have a tendency to become scattered and now my new affirmation for this is. I am calm and able to concentrate on any situation with ease.

My body is over weight which has bothered me since I was about twelve years old. The odd thing is when I was twelve years old I really wasn't over weight. Yet this is when I began to think I was. This is when I began to diet and exercise and so forth to shed the unwanted pounds that seriously wasn't there. This was in my mind however, planted firmly by well meaning friends, family members and media.

Listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer has helped me to realize that I am NOT my body. I am perfectly created. So with that in mind I am feeling better about myself. I am also taking a look at my list of things that I want to do and on this list I have wanted to learn Yoga since I was a teen. I would watch the poses and see the look of serenity on their faces and think, Wow I'd like to do that. So why haven't I learned it you ask? Because of well meaning family members telling me that it is a religion and to stay away from it. The same well meaning friends telling me that meditation is basically evil and you need to pray not meditate. Which I stayed away from meditation too.

But I always wanted to learn to meditate and I wanted to learn Yoga. So now that I began to release the undesired ropes holding me down I started meditation first. I will be honest I was worried at first but my overwhelming desire to meditate and bring a sense of calmness, peace to my troubled mind outweighed my “fears”. What I found was truly an amazing place to be in. When I meditate I find the peace I need.

I was telling a friend the other day of one of my first experiences meditating. It was perhaps my fourth or fifth time. I was reading a great book the Master Key System. And I was trying to bring about nothingness, the absence of thought. Which isn't easy but I was able to do this several times for split seconds. Then soon I relaxed and began to float in my mind. I was repeating the words “I'm in unity with the Universe.” in my mind. Softly spoken in my thoughts, repeatedly. Suddenly everything just became white washed, the only way I can describe it. I felt myself floating in my mind and body, swaying back and forth on this sea of white. I felt suddenly connected to everyone and everything. I was calmly connected in this vast sea of white. It was very beautiful to feel and I felt so connected in such a soothing way. It was as if I belonged and I knew I belonged.

It is in the silence that we hear God speak to us.

So now... I'm also planning on learning Yoga.

Meditation - Again

I'm on a journey of self discovery. Some times I do not realize I'm on this journey and other times it's quite apparent. I like to visit Enchanted Games on myLifetime.com to read the positive affirmations. I have noticed that recently when I actually do sit and focus before I click on a card, I'm receiving virtually the same ones, often. The one that stands out the most I'm receiving is “I take time to meditate daily”

I brought up mediating several times and it is seriously becoming a wonderful part of my life. I'm actually enjoying the feeling of quieting my thoughts. I have also discovered that meditating is different each time I do so. Some times it's just a calming experience, while other times it's a calming euphoric experience.

Some simple steps I am using to meditate. First I make sure there is no distractions around me. TV off and even music. I sit or lay on my bed. I relax my body take a few deep breaths. Then I simply focus on clearing my mind. Now it sounds funny, but that is exactly what I do, concentrate on clearing my mind. I say things in my mind, “Clearing my thoughts.” Which I repeat a few times until I feel my concentration is literally on these words and nothing else. Then I take another step, “I'm one with the Universe.” or “I'm one with the Holy Spirit.” Which I repeat over and over, but it's a very relaxed voice I use in my head and I visualize nothing but a blank, white slate and there is a soft drifting or swaying back and forth in my mind of floating in this cosmic stream of unity.

Once I am this relaxed state I do positive affirmations, or I begin to use gratitude statements, thanking the Universe for my life. Sometimes I just allow my mind to drift and I watch and see where my thoughts lead me.

One thing for sure, this is a positive step forward in my journey of self discovery.

Moving Forward continued

The subject did come up quite quickly when I went to work and amazingly enough I spoke passionately about it and yet I was fine with any and every outcome. So I was able to move forward.

I'd meditated and given it to God and what I was given in return was quite simple. I realized I shouldn't give it any negative energy. The more energy and time I give it the more it will produce undesired results. So I said my peace a bit passionately and then I released it.

The great part about it is I know inside I'm fine with it and I have moved on.

Moving Forward

I often tell other people and myself that it is important to move forward. Today I am at a place where I thought I had moved forward on a certain subject and found I haven't. So just for the record... this sucks.

I woke up this morning dreaming about the subject and this made me realize its not dealt with and released. So obviously I told myself to just let it go but in fact I buried it instead. So this morning I've been contemplating on how to actually go about letting it go. I think I will do a visualization with mediation. Where I actually visualize letting it go into the hands of God while I'm meditating.

Tonight the subject will arrive and I will know if this has worked when I am confronted with it on how I react and how it makes me feel inside.

My first blog

Well here it is. I have so many thoughts and I figure this is a great way to get them across.

I think its amazing how the Universe works. How we attract to us what we need to know. I also love how we can connect things. I had been listening to and reading a couple of books by Abraham-Hicks. Something impressed me was that sometimes we just need to take a step back to get relief.
We may be angry and we cannot jump from anger to joy, we just need to take a small step toward joy, which could even be revenge (thoughts) that give us relief. The point is that we get relief from the anger. Of course we don't stay in the revenge thoughts we move again towards joy and again we will get relief from the revenge. This can take several steps or many steps all dependent on us. The point is receiving relief and moving towards joy.

I next read Getting into the Gap by Dr. Wayne Dyer. He explains in his book about the sound of God is "Ahhh". This is the sound we use in meditation. I found this so fascinating.

A day or so later I'm at work and it suddenly strikes me. What sound do we make when we find relief? Yep that's right - Ahhh, which according to Dr. Wayne Dyer is the sound of God.

So now I truly to believe that is the sound of God is Ahhh and we should seek this sound in our quiet meditations or in those times of need of relief. Allow this sound to help move you closer to God.